Saturday, November 21, 2009

the incomprehensible blank

I can’t ever fill in the blank

Theres no creative bone in my body

A thin white woman’s
Bones after thirty resort to
Emptying themselves of
And then some
Offshoot of
Milk calcium is given

Theres no hair raised
I’ve waxed and waned
In this shower no hilarity just
Every so often skin like acetate

Every day you floss and it
Still stinks
Every other you wash droplets off
And whole sinks
Are stopped

From inside this our shed
Ive no lasting reflection to make
I am everchangingly fill in the blank

Friday, November 13, 2009

Update Sleeping With the Sun In His Eyes Update

Sleeping With the Sun In His Eyes: A Lost Boy At Home In the Worldby Akol Ayii Madut & Bree is ready for the printer and only thanks to you. Many people preordered the book, and a good number donated $35 dollars or more as special patrons, so almost half of the printing fees were raised together. Yahoo! And now but for a few hitches the book can be made and in hand by sometime January. The goal was to release the book, a tale woven of Sudanese history, the personal story of the Sudanese Lost Boy Akol, and my own ramblings as he and I worked this project to fruition, by January 1st because that is the birthday so many Lost Boys were assigned when they came to live as citizens in America. I don't know that this release date is possible, but I am happy to say its "in the works".


so I'll say it again It's in the Works!!!

While it is too late to be a special patron and land your name on the acknowledgements page, we are still taking preorders. If you want a copy they are 15 dollars each and three additional dollars to ship (covers up to three books). All forms of payment are accepted so send a check, cash or credit card number (with expiry) to Green Panda Press 3174 Berkshire Road Cleveland Heights OH 44118 or email greenpandapress@gmail.com with any inquiry.
Include shipping address and email with your order.

thanks thanks thanks

This poem is called we are all orange

for you, Gearity

This poem is called we are all orange

They asked me to speak to you
About poetry, diversity
To say we are the same would
Cause scandal, controversy
To say whether we are sisters
Or brothers, adults or coming up

We’re all corrupt and are corrupted
To say we start out right, even
If we are interrupted, to say we
Start out downright perfect,
o Say, somewhere someone loves us,
Even if it's just one person who isn’t nuts
To say we start out fresh and gather
Dust, to say we have the world in the
Palm that grows outside our huts
In the hassles happening outside
Our castles, to suggest the streets we
Walk to stand in line for the bus
Or limo, tractor, compact, Hummer, trailer, SUV
To suggest those streets are any less than
What makes us us

So so we grow every day we listen up
To the traffic, (o say can we?)

Beats in tires squeal ling
Drums in the weathermen flying
In the copters, songs in the ivy
And the pattern that it makes
On buildings, sweet and ill feelings
Climb up
What climbs on us? What jive shucks?
Black yellow brown red and white
Fingers grip a pen or punch a pad to write
Man woman child and in between
Copy down to share what they’ve seen
Whether voices carry on with fictions
Or speak personal truths to say we
Are the same is contra(diction)

Diction means to speak
Make us proud
Make it from the heart
So we can see we
So we can see what’s we
So you can see that you
And i are me
Yeah right, you and what army?

The power of the pen the sword
Cuts down the might of
Buildings, businesses, mayors
Contracts, cancers, districts

Color blinds venetian opening
Consciousness like traffic widens
Power of the pen so much stronger
Than living in one

Opening consciousness
Doles out beats
Could walk or could be walking beats
Could strum or drum or try’n compete
With the sounds outside and ivy growing
Patterns round the style you all
Are just now knowing
That you that makes you you
And me you too you

Yoo hoo –did you say diversity?
To say you’re me would cause a scandal
Differences is who it is that just loves us
Cause they give the boost so you
And I can know just what is what
Is that’s what
Blue green violet and orange

In sixth grade the joke was ‘nothing rhymes with
Orange’, but I’m not listening
When fruit is just been washed its glistening
When I speak my rhymes whole hoards are
Listening, so when they say cant you rhyme
You spit o-range

Ohio’s in the foothills of mountain o ranges
We climb and descend
o Cleveland we can’t rhyme with us
In the sunset we are orange, all of us
When the sun sets another day makes history
o We start out right, we climb we.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Sleeping With the Sun In His Eyes

Green Panda Press announces the forthcoming title merging the life-story of Akol Ayii with history of Southern Sudan and the American experience:
Sleeping with the Sun in His Eyes:A Lost Boy at Home In the World by Akol Ayii Madut & Bree

(Scroll down for an excerpt from the book!)

All publishing costs will be raised thru pre-sales and donations. A portion of the sales will go towards getting much-needed water to Southern Sudan. For more information email greenpandapress@gmail.com

To pre-order, fill out the attached form and mail to Green Panda Press
3174 Berkshire Rd. Cleve. Hts., OH 44118 --Be sure to include an email address to be notified as the book is sent to the printer, released to the public, and to learn of all pertaining events!

The book is $15.00 If you would like it shipped an additional $3.00 charge will apply. Cash/checks/credit cards are acceptable forms of payment, however to pay by credit card, you will need to opt for shipping, or pick up your book at Mac's Backs Books on Coventry, located in Cleveland Heights at 1820 Coventry Road, OH 44118. Your credit card will be charged when the book goes to print. All checks will be deposited within five days of receipt.

**If all monies are raised in time, the book will be out January 1, 2010 (The birthday given to Akol and other Lost Boys of Sudan when they came to America).

**If you would like to be listed as a Patron on the Acknowledgments page in the book please make a donation of $35.00 or more, for which you will receive a signed copy shipped immediately upon arrival from the printer. Presales/Patron Deadline 10/25/09

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When Akol first arrived in Cleveland, Ohio, and stepped off the plane what he saw was everywhere wheat flour. He knew before he came here most American people had plenty to eat. Still he was truly amazed to discover such surplus. Here, he marveled, people left their wheat flour to just sit in great piles everywhere on the ground.

Akol wondered if they had run out of the sacks used for holding the flour.

A white woman was nearby working for the airport. He went to her and leant in, to conspire in English somewhat wanting:



“I have never seen so much flour. We have people who are starve in my home country. Why don’t somebody send some wheat flour back to there?”



“Welcome to America,” the woman smiled her brightest at him.



Akol couldn’t wait to get outside. Immediately he knelt down to take some of the wheat flour in his hands. The flour was freezing cold! It began to melt away down through his very grip, making everything wet and cold. His hands, even his knees were wet.

Brrrr! He dropped the melting flour to the ground. This place was unreal. Here in this new city, as it was in a desert mirage, the hulking piles of food disappeared at the touch.



I will be getting used to this and more, he told himself.



He went to join up with his entourage: the local director of Catholic Charities, a case-worker, and a native-speaker—a woman who turned out to be his sister were among those who escorted the second Sudanese Lost Boy into cold Cleveland.

999



Poem for Certain Lost Boys
by Bree

at home our mothers
ground the food for everybody
to eat

here we are dishwashers
we grind the food
in great disposals

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Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Poem by A Boy Soldier

i am writing the story down of a Sudanese Lost Boy who works with me. he is a poet but doesnt have the poems down in English yet, and i am attempting to transcribe--meaning these are his words and my line spacing, etc. i think he is an amazing poet!

Why is it me? By Akol Ayii Madut

I was born welcome
to the world
To the womb I was
innocent and welcome

The sun rises up
black with blood
The same blood flows
down into the ground

Once, the villages burned
Nobody is going back now
I look to the sky and see black
raindrops of blood
Why is it me?

I see East Africa—the blood flows
I look from the North and the blood
is flowing, same as the East
No one can speak to one another
Why me?

I look from the South and
it is same as the East
I look from the West,
it is the same blood flowing

I was born welcome
to the world
Our families were ready
to bring us to the world

I don’t have much love
I carried the gun and
missed my family
Every day I am smelling blood
What are you going to do? (Sleep)

Thursday, July 30, 2009

in lieu of anything else i write on pain

ive thot all this while my further experiences in the saga of my headaches and the health care system would make a fine sequel to 'was chicken trax', but am finding irony and wit are scarce while one is in the midst of a health-crisis.
'was chicken trax' ended on an optimistic note--i had found a doc who gave me relief and things were looking sunny and bright. meanwhile, my health issues returned, with a vengeance and were no longer assuaged by the old regimen.
i certainly have encountered absurdities the last months. tales worth telling.
and one day i can laff it up. meanwhile, i hardly pick up a pen, or set to type a poem or story, and i have not put a single sheet of paper thru my inkjet since the first week of May. so, bare with me as it seems most times i do write it is from the perspective of one experiencing moderate to severe pain.
certainly poets and authors write to work thru suffering, and ive been tinkering with just that, even allowing the subject of my writing to linger on inane bodily pain.
in high school i wrote thru depression and anger at our lot--as men and women in a world riddled with injustice and often devoid of meaning. i eked out my own meaning, and have much to smile about. my whole adult life i've marveled at my recovery. i think myself lucky, and deserving of the many great things i've come into. this is why i dont chop off my own head to end my pain. this is why i persist in a seemingly endless maze towards that Castle--where i will supposedly find relief.
three solid months now of pain around the clock--dashed with a cple days here or there where i woke and remained pain free--i now enter month four of migraine 2009.
i hope u accompany me further on my trek! and understand i am not being hyperbolic if i write of pain. even those who experience pain daily and nightly never are used to the pain. they adapt, they cope and they even go about their business, but the pain never loses its impact. the pain is pain is pain, and blows. i am cool in the mind and thriving yet, but in pain and quite out of the proverbial closet of it now. which does feel....kind of good!

yr loving editor, Bree

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

again to my friends

again i recede into my hairline
rapture is a two hour refrain
from the song i call my little grain

two husked skulls/ rinsed and drained
energies rightly do me in and nightly
i wonder why trigeminal nerves
fractal leaves what dance in the peripheral
even the fence moves as i hold my own face

bitty progress and i'm milking the landline
calling all but the local piss rags
then its a few Shaq-sized steps
back not moon-walking babe

i am like a cup of rice
bloating in the stopped up sink
i am mainly extraneous and
bound like by coffee grounds
i lose my nutritious value
and gather at the bottom again

the drug which works to a point
has me losing hair and swells my joints
its predecessor made my guts queasy
and woke me like my elders to piss nights

fifteen minutes forgetting
in the car say or walking
movements maketh the pain
peripheral and intermittent

slaving with great pots at work
makes pain seem in-existant

maybe i shld carry my couldron
some blocks and write u again